I have been working hard all day and I figured it was time to goof off already… I mean I went on mobsters so few times that every time I did I already had enough engergy to rob a bank. Thats saying a lot compared to how much im noramlly on it. And can I mention the fact that I get “achievments” in mobsters now is freaking awesome!!! Oh and I just this second saw that they have added commas to the damn app… that is fantastic! I can’t tell you how annoying it was to have to cound the Zeros to make sure I was looking at the number right! I love when programers improve things I already like.

Well my car is finished so im going home. $220 later I have a new piece of freaking plastic… Im sure I could have had Matt Stevens install that crap and only spent half that but o well… its fixed, i”m poor and going home… then to met Curt’s parents and have dinner… ekkk.

Posted: July 23rd, 2008 under Web, HTML, Tech.
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First off I would like to start this blog by stating that I think it is amazing that for the first time ever I have rememberd my user name and password for my blog…lol… Im on Curtis’ computer right now and felt the need to blog.

It has been a relativly uneventful weekend. Friday night Curtis wanted to have a party, so they ended up having one at little brothers house. I wasn’t horribly excited about this party from the get go. Mainly because I knew I wouldn’t be able to drink, and I HATE drunk people when im sober… really, with a passion. Little did I know that I was going to be yucky sick the whole party and have even less fun! Although my awesome boyfriend, brother and two best friends were there, I still managed to have a pretty awful time. I feel asleep before the party only to wake up to a phone call from a friend crying and a headache… then my tummy decided to hate me. I did quite enjoy my swing adventure with The Domi though. And it was really nice meeting Amanda (one of Curts bffs, and Nicks wife) Although I wish I hadn’t felt so bad so I wouldn’t have been such bad company.

That night when I finally got Curtis to leave we came home, were both sick… and slept until 9ish only to finally get out of bed at noon, eat bagles (I still haven’t got the bagle matt sent me btw) and I promptly feel asleep until 6pm!!!! Curtis watched Battlestar all day and when I finally woke up I made an awesome dinner… we ate and both feel alseep watching some more Battlestar.

And let me clarify I have no idea what has happened to me that I willingly subject myself to watching Battlestar… or any for of Science Fiction for that matter… yes I know when Johnny used to turn his shows on I would run from the room just as fast as I could. I don’t know whats changed. Maybe its because I really like him, and I know he really likes it, so it doesn’t bother me… really who knows? And while I’m on the subject Dextor is a freaking awesome TV show! Go watch it now, I command you!!!! And the new season of Phych started on Friday… Curtis is downloading it for me right now, because I missed it!

Today was an awesome end to my weekend… after Curt went to work I took all the crap out of my car, picked up Ryan. Got my oil changed… where they also fixed my tail light, and put air in my tires. My car drives a lot better now. And then it was off to get my car cleaned while we at Giant Burritos for lunch.  My car, really has NEVER been this clean…And back home for some awesomely bad movie called “Pigs” if you like the American Pie movies I do recommend it!

Now its time to go off to beddy bye time…

Posted: July 20th, 2008 under Automotive, Movies/Music/TV, Parties and Nightlife.
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Yesterday when I was at the doctors she gave me a perscription to some Antibiotics that I am not allowed to consume alcohol with. She explained to me that there was some ingredient in the pills like the stuff they give alcholics to make them vomit as soon as they comsume booze… So with that warning I figured, I don’t want to puke violently anytime soon so no alcohol it is. Seven whole days sans liquor.

A month and a half ago this would have been an unimaginable task for me. I had been drinking nearly 5 times a week to  get drunk, and the days I wasn’t drunk I at least had a beer or two after work. However In the last 6 weeks I’ve settled down some and try to keep it to two times a week at most. Which is a) good for my liver b)for my pocket book and c) for my working out…. and I guess just good for everything.

Since reciving this new yesterday I’ve been contemplating how the next seven days were going to go. I know that Friday night is impending and boyfriend and friends will want to get wasted… I wont be able to. Really it shouldn’t be a big deal but I think its going to be… being around a bunch of drunk people isn’t fun sober. But thinking about the next seven days… and the fact that everyone calls me an alcoholic all the time got me thinking even more. Could I go without a drop of acohol for a whole month?

Why not? I quit smoking (well i’m not claiming that for another 14 days but yeah…) I can go without caffine when I choose to. I have gone without before… But then I look at my social calender and i’m stressed that parties and kickits are gonna suck for me.

I think I should…

Posted: July 15th, 2008 under Goals, Plans, Hopes.
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So… I work at a desk all day long. I get tired of just looking at a screen and completeing my tasks. So like lots of office personel, I have instant messanger on my computer. Well Friday I called in sick, and the day before when I left work I had only partialy closed my instant messanger. Friday morning as I was waking up and taking a shower I breifly thought to myself, “self.. maybe you should text Kati and Ryan and let them know you wont be at work, so they don’t message you” However I decided to take no action.

And now on Monday morning I get into work and of course I have messages of my screen:

kati : omg
kati :so - how bad is it if you have sex - first time with someone
kati : and you cry and you complain a few times during it
kati : ahahhaha
kati : i have not went to bed yet
kati : like i have slept 4 hours in the past two days now - ugggg
kati :dyin over here

I am going to just hope…. that since they were still up on my screen that that means no one at work saw them… lol oh the funny humors of life

Posted: July 14th, 2008 under Random.
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I feel so gross! and I am so done feeling this way, let me tell you…

So i’ve been struggling with my gym dedication for just over a month now. I am I’m really starting to get sick of it.. added on top of that in recent days I’ve taken some new medication that has totally fucked up my horomones… and throwing my entire system out of wack! I’ve been tired, incurably hungry, moody…

And on top of all of this im sick… my throat is swollen, my ears hurt and im coughing and sneezing up shit… gross i know…but really who get sick in the summer time besides me? Even after sleeping all night last night I still don’t feel any better, worse infact. And yet I still have to be here at work. So im not going to be able to get back to working out until I am feeling better… and who knows when i’m going to be able to stop eatting like a cow! All I know is my butt is squishy, and I already have my dress for Ashley’s wedding, I better fit into it come August!!

I am just thankful it is almost Friday! This week has gone fast and I’m ready for some quality time with my boyfriend dude…

Posted: July 10th, 2008 under Kaite, Work Out 2008.
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I am not sure that I really have anything in particular to blog about right now, but I feel like writting so here we go… Im starting to get back into my work out routine. Which is aweosome seeing as I have been a lazy bum for the whole month of June. Darn boys being a bad influence! o and stress too I guess. lol… I always feel so good when I’m done working out, I don’t know why I try and convince myself that its too much work.

I have been wanting to do Yoga for quite some time now. I told myself I wanted to take a class and then discovered how every expensive Yoga classes are, so I resolved to buying a DVD but just hadn’t gotten around to it. Well being the spoiled little girl I am… My Mommy bought me a Yoga video last week. I got my first chance to do it this morning (after waking up at 5am!!!) and I was surprised. One of the reasons I wanted to start yogo was to gain more flexibility and relaxation.  It was very relaxing My flexibility though is severely lacking! There were some moves that I just stared at the TV like “wtf mate?!?!” I really am going to try to do the video every morning… okay lets be realistic… at least 5 times a week. And see where I am a month from now Coupled with my current gym work outs I think I’ll be good.

I haven’t had a cigarette since last Thursday… today marks the start of Day 5 sans cigarettes… it is hard. Just like my choice to be happy, I am simply choosing not to smoke. But my brain fights me a million times a day. Telling me its okay and that I want one. But I’ve been strong, and I will continue to be strong.

All and all I am a very happy Kitty, who has a great guy, can’t stop smiling, all my good friends and I’ve been cooking again… So i’ve got yummy foods too and on a side note, Curtis loves my soft tacos… said they were the best he’d ever had. Yay me!

Posted: July 1st, 2008 under Kaite, Work Out 2008.
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I received a motivational email yesterday with a great message… I can be summed up as,

You have to choices, be happy or don’t.

At first I just thought… o yeah that’s a nice theory but impossible. With that point of view I would have to admit that I had been choosing to be unhappy. Which is a complete contradiction to the lack of control I usually claim for my depression. Then last night I was dealing with a situation which began to make me anxious and while talking to Alex about it… he simply said, “you have two choices”… to which my response was, “If it was only that easy” But then as the night progressed I realized that the consequences of my choosing to be depressed were. If I freaked out, the other person was going to win.

So I choose to be happy

This Morning when I woke up, I choose to be positive. And even better I choose to cast aside my weakness and quit smoking for real. I am done making excuses. And letting other people effect how I live my life. I’ve done it before… and like Tamika said, its simply mind over matter… exactly the same as choosing to be happy.

So here I am, Just a Kaite having a happy day And I plan on keeping it that way no matter what. Just let what happens happen and not get worked up over it. <3

Posted: June 27th, 2008 under Kaite, Life.
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I am so excited! I was just playing on xbox live (avoiding work) and discovered that in September Viva Pinata: Trouble in Paradise comes out! Another Viva Pinata! That is probably exciting for all of … well no one else but me… but I don’t care!

“Return to magical Piñata Island in Viva Piñata®: Trouble in Paradise. Unfortunately, not all is well on the island, as Professor Pester and his gang of Ruffians have wiped out Piñata Central’s computer records, posing a threat to parties everywhere. Rebuild the computer database and thwart Professor Pester’s evil plot by sending piñatas at full candiosity to parties all around the world. Build and maintain your piñata gardens—using your creativity and imagination to attract, trap, protect, train, and manage more than 100 different piñata species.”

32 new species of pinata… you can teach them tricks… and all sorts of other new fun stuff… I can’t wait! And it looks like they are bringing in the abominable snowman from the TV show to the game… ha ha awesome!!

Posted: June 25th, 2008 under Games.
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I can’t seem to focus… isn’t that always my problem. Procrastination never seems to get bored of hanging around with me. I have been at work for 4 hours now and well, I have accomplished next to nothing! Go me! That frustrates me so much.

I just wish I could be uninterruptedly productive. That I could come to work and get organized for a change. I was there 4 months ago. Back when I was using work to run away from my personal life, and my failing relationship. But after that when I started partying and only wanting to have fun, my motivation and focus completely went out the door. :/ I don’t know how to refocus myself. It just doesn’t seem possible. Delete Myspace? Yeah… like that will happen.

So in the mean time, until I find my work mojo again, I will procrastinate. Hey tomorrow I get to spend two hours in sexual harassment training… I still don’t think they can make me go sit in the same room as him for 2 hours for this damn training. But they seem to think they can, so whatever. I suppose i will be subjected to it and allow them to waste two hours of my already unproductive day.

Tonight BFF dinner night… w00t

Posted: June 25th, 2008 under Random, Work.
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I shouldn’t even justify this situation with a response but I suppose I shall… Because I never do what I know is correct. One goes out, one comes in? Are you freaking kidding me?!?!?! Its a fair trade off hurting one of your truest friends to the point where she never wants to speak to you again, and in exchange you get what? Some random girl who comes with incredible amounts of drama?

After reading that I am again reminded why I never want to be his friend again. I still cannot fathom that he though he was defending me in what he did. And now he has gone from canceling a date with this chick because knows my ex-benny (went on a date with him)… telling me he doesn’t want any part of that fucked up circle of drama… to first causing the worst drama of all himself… and now he’s practically head over heals for this girl just because she’s paying attention to him.

I would like to say I have the best wishes for him, I don’t like seeing people fucking up. But honestly don’t care anymore… I have always cared too much… and obviously he doesn’t care one bit. I wouldn’t be surprised if after this he and Benny found some common asshole ground to stand on and because friends…. that would be freaking hilarious! Just so you know…

And Benny don’t even get me started on him… I feel bad for what Josh did to the two of us… But really after this shit he’s pulling with our other friends the fucker shouldn’t be surprised that Karma dished him this… and OMG is he a lair! Thats all there is too it.

Posted: June 23rd, 2008 under Rants.
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